Hope For The Weary

The question of the day is : Is There Hope For The Weary? I am so weary at this point of my life that I don't know if writing this is such a good thing. I am out of sorts today and I feel like my life is out of control. I am trying to introduce the cats to the outside and it is not working. I feel like I've created this world and it is failing. I have so much work to do around the house that I feel like giving up. The thing that is scaring me is that I don't care. I have lost my will to clean. I thought I would never get like this, but it has happened. I am going to get some therapy. I don't have the tools to do the things that need to be done and spoken. I don't want to cause fights and contention, and then I let everything and everybody step all over me. I have to get some help. I don't want to seem like a Debbie Downer, but I am down today. I did however take a walk and I felt somewhat better. I am listening to my favorite band, Chicago and I am playing a really cool video game, and I am reading a good book. So those of some of the things I do enjoy doing and I am doing them. I just am not cleaning my house and cooking, and those of the things I really enjoyed in the past. I don't know what is going on. Maybe it is just the phase in life that comes with teenagers. I hope so, because I know it does not last. Oh, one note, Sarah was asked to Homecoming by this boy named Zack and he then came up to her at school and said that he couldn't go and so she came home and said that she was glad because she didn't want to go. But she said something to this boy in her last period dance class and that boy asked her to homecoming last night in the cutest way. He had a note with fishes on it and a bucket full of Swedish fish and out of all the fishes, there was some fishes with letters on them and she had to unscramble the letters to reveal who it was that asked her. It was hard. Andrew ate a fish and we were worried that we wouldn't be able to figure it out. I figured it out, and she wasn't too thrilled. She still is not. I hope she cheers up and has a good time. He is a junior and I thought it was an honor to be asked at all. I will write more about it. We have to find a dress. More later..