Yard work in the heat of the day

I am here at home and contemplating going outside in the heat and do some yard work. It is my new thing now that we don't have any cable. It is amazing what you can get done when you have no t.v. We have the normal channels and they are all so fuzzy. It is not enjoyable to me. So I find myself wanting to read a book instead. I am in the middle of Pride and Prejudice and I love it. I can't put it down. I want to read all day, but I do have other things to do. I weeded the yard yesterday and I am going to go out and do some more tonight. It is kind of therapeutic. I love it. Everything is going good. The children are out of school tomorrow and I will get them out there in the morning to help me. It will be good for them. Andrew cut his fingers really bad on Sunday night. He was on our new trampoline and he fell off and cut his fingers on the springs. It was bad, and he came inside the house and dripped blood all over. We took him in and he had to get 5 stitches in two of his fingers, 10 all together. It was so sad how he screamed when they put the shots in his cuts. It was so hard to watch. He is doing fine now and doesn't really want to get on the trampoline so soon. I am keeping them from getting infection. He gets his stitches out in about 5 days. I will let you know. I am going to go outside and do some yard work, and do some therapy.

Today is frustrating

Life I think is frustrating these days it seems. At times I am totally happy, the next I am worrying about our finances and other things. We have really cut back on certain things and it just seems like we are not making ends meet. We are working our guts out and are not getting anywhere. My poor husband feels like a failure, and in return it makes me sad. I don't know what it's going to be like in 5 years, but things have got to get better. I am so sick of the way things are with the President that we have now. I am totally voting for Obama, but I just read that Biden hated the commercial that the democrats ran on McCain. That was kind of a joke. I don't know how I feel about the election. I am so scared for the economy and the way things are. I cut this lady's hair today and she has been retired for 20 years and she has 2 houses. One here and one in Arizona and she gets to go there for the winter and then come back for the summer and I thought to myself that I probably have to work the rest of my life. I will never get to retire and do quilting all day. Who gets to do that? I wonder how things will be when I reach that age. Will I be some 60 year old cosmetologist cutting hair? We need a change of government. I am so sick of this election and the mud slinging that always happens in an election year. I am scared about Obama's experience and if he has enough. I hope things are going to change and that we can be not so frustrated. The little people of the country need a break.

The "tails" of Max and Teddy

Dog training is so hard at times, but so worth it. I have really fallen in love with Teddy. He is so cute and so good. He really tries to go to the door when he needs to eliminate. It was a good decision to get him for a companion for Max. Max absolutely loves him. He is so protective of him and always is there to see that he is taken care of. They love to go with me in the car to take the kids to school and get them from school. They wrestle on the way there in the back seat. It is so funny. They got kicked out of our bedroom the other night because they wouldn't settle down and sleep. I was so mad and I told them to settle down and they ignored me so out they went. They were kind of annoyed at me in the morning, but they learned their lesson. I love them so much. I think they are the cutest dogs ever. I take them on their walks and I get the biggest kick out of watching them walk. They trot and prance and it is so fun to watch. Teddy sleeps in the funniest position and so we took this photo of him. He has a nasty habit though and he loves to play in the water bowl. He gets his paws in it and trails water every where. He lays on the floor with his hind legs out and it is hilarious to watch. Max is being the alpha dog and he is teaching him things. It is really a science to watch that take place. How they communicate with each other. I know that Max tells him things with his body language and Teddy understands. It is just like the cats. I know that the cats are into telepathy because they can read your mind. I will think " I need to go do this " and they will be on that very place you thought, so you have to move them. I am not so mad at my cats, however I still think we have too many, but I am outvoted in the house. I will still get my way. I think they are cute and interesting, but I don't like naughty behavior. I have to go now and walk the boys, they are waiting at the door and looking at me with those sad eyes.

Another Day Off

Well, it is my day off today and I wanted to do something relaxing, so maybe I will read my book. I have been reading Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen. I love it. I love the AandE movie. I know that it is run into the ground, but I can't help but love the story of Elizabeth Bennett. I think that she is a true heroine. I love the way Jane Austen writes, and I think way back when she was alive many people didn't think she would be so famous, as she is today. I love the stories and I think I will read Emma next. I am going to play my Indiana Jones game too. I have a wonderful friend, Terry, and she got me on to Indiana Jones Legos for the Wii. I didn't have much time to spend on the Wii so I got the DS version and I love this game. It is the cutest game I have ever played. I know that they are going to make a Batman one and then I want to see about Star Wars. I love Legos and I love how they copy the movies. Indiana Jones is hilarious. I am about done with the levels and then I am going to go back and freeplay all of the scenes. I haven't seen the new movie yet, and so I will wait until it comes out on DVD, and then I will own it.
I am going to go get some groceries, and I have to pick up Sarah's dress's at this nice place we found yesterday. It is called Modest by Design. She found two dresses to wear to church and she can wear one to Homecoming. She isn't going with that boy to Homecoming. She didn't want to date until she was 16 and she just doesn't want to go with a boy. She was nervous and scared and so we had a talk in the dressing room of the dress store and she started to cry and I told myself it is useless to force someone, especially your daughter, to go out with someone she doesn't know, and doesn't like. I had to apologize and she was a lot happier. She called him when we got home and told him she didn't want to go. I guess he was stalking her and trying to get as much info from her friends about her, and it freaked her out. So she is going to go stag with her good friend Courtenay. I think they will have a good time. I just want her not to grow up too fast and hey, if she never dates, then that it ok with me because I don't want boys sniffing around here anyway.
Everything else is ok, Andrew is enjoying his school so far, and is getting hyped about his convention that is coming in October. He love Anime and so they are having a convention and he gets to go. I love that he loves Anime and he is a good boy.
Teddy our new dog is fitting beautifully into our family. He is a good dog and loves his brother Max. Max is the alpha dog and anything Teddy gets, Max wants. So we have to be fair and watch out for that kind of behaviour. They play so cute together. I will take a picture of it soon. I will go for now and get ready for the day.

Some older pics

I borrowed my sister's camera and I found these pics on it and I wanted to put them on my blog. I love these because it shows our happy family.

My Daughter and Me

I just wanted to post a picture of Sarah and her Joker outfit she wore to church today. It is amazing. She is obsessed with Heath Ledger's joker in Batman. I haven't seen it as of yet, but I am told by my children and husband that is is a good movie. I want to see it this week. So I will take the kids to it. I just got back from church and it was a good day. I loved it better than last week. Some weeks are weird and some weeks are great. You have to take the good with the bad I suppose. I live in an older part of Kearns and there is a lot of older seniors in our ward and so it is trying at times. However I love seniors and all that they do. I made a new friend and her name is Klista. She has been inactive for 3 years and today she decided to come to church. I sat by her in Relief Society. I hope that she starts coming on a regular basis. I was so sick yesterday. Like a stupid person I thought I could stop using my Lexapro, because I thought it was making me lethargic, and so I said that I didn't need it. I stopped and my body let me have it yesterday. I got so sick to my stomach and then I threw up and had a migraine. I take Lexapro for anxiety. I will never stop taking it again. I made a mess of everything. I couldn't go to work and I let down my boss, and then Tom had to come home from work and take care of me. The kids went to the show and my mom helped too. I feel better, a little groggy, but I am functioning. I learned that I am O.K. I don't need people telling me that I am not getting things done. I choose what I live in, where I live, and what house cleaning I am going to do for the day. I am O.K. I feel happier. I just have to take it one day at a time.

Hope For The Weary

The question of the day is : Is There Hope For The Weary? I am so weary at this point of my life that I don't know if writing this is such a good thing. I am out of sorts today and I feel like my life is out of control. I am trying to introduce the cats to the outside and it is not working. I feel like I've created this world and it is failing. I have so much work to do around the house that I feel like giving up. The thing that is scaring me is that I don't care. I have lost my will to clean. I thought I would never get like this, but it has happened. I am going to get some therapy. I don't have the tools to do the things that need to be done and spoken. I don't want to cause fights and contention, and then I let everything and everybody step all over me. I have to get some help. I don't want to seem like a Debbie Downer, but I am down today. I did however take a walk and I felt somewhat better. I am listening to my favorite band, Chicago and I am playing a really cool video game, and I am reading a good book. So those of some of the things I do enjoy doing and I am doing them. I just am not cleaning my house and cooking, and those of the things I really enjoyed in the past. I don't know what is going on. Maybe it is just the phase in life that comes with teenagers. I hope so, because I know it does not last. Oh, one note, Sarah was asked to Homecoming by this boy named Zack and he then came up to her at school and said that he couldn't go and so she came home and said that she was glad because she didn't want to go. But she said something to this boy in her last period dance class and that boy asked her to homecoming last night in the cutest way. He had a note with fishes on it and a bucket full of Swedish fish and out of all the fishes, there was some fishes with letters on them and she had to unscramble the letters to reveal who it was that asked her. It was hard. Andrew ate a fish and we were worried that we wouldn't be able to figure it out. I figured it out, and she wasn't too thrilled. She still is not. I hope she cheers up and has a good time. He is a junior and I thought it was an honor to be asked at all. I will write more about it. We have to find a dress. More later..

Rain, Rain Go Away

Well, August suddenly went away with a rain shower and my children decided to go play in it with our good friend Courtenay. They walk and played in the rain and now today they don't feel so hot. Hum, I wonder why? Today it is Labor Day and it is cold. What weird weather we have. I don't think it will stay cold for long I don't know. I am glad that fall is coming. It has rained all night and early morning here. I love the rain. I mopped my floors and now you can't even tell. Oh, well. The kids have started school and they are loving it. I am so happy. Sarah is in social dance and she loves that. She does these little jigs all around the house. It is fun to watch. Andrew is loving Choir class. He ran the mile in P.E. and I was so impressed. They are going to do good. Sarah got asked to Homecoming . He is a big guy like Andrew and he called last night to ask her. She is excited. She wants to go and get a dress and shoes. I am excited for her. I had an MRI on my foot and I have a stress fracture. I am so heavy that I broke my foot while standing on it! What does that say about my bones? I am going to lose weight, I am so embarrassed. I don't know if they will cast my foot or they will say to keep off it. I have to go and see what my doctor says. I need for it to be healed so I can do the things that I love, especially walk the dogs. I had a melt down the other night because my cat Charlie pooped on my bed for the last time. He is mad at me because we brought another dog into the house. I was so mad and still mad at him. He is banished from my bedroom and this next week when the rain stops, he will be outside. I have too many cats and I would just be fine with the 2 dogs, but the kids don't want to lose the cats. I don't like it when they get mad and then they take it out on your nice stuff. They are vindictive that way. So my advice to anyone who is looking to get a pet, get a dog. They are so loving and non judgemental. Cats are nice if you only have one or two in the household, however they are sneaky and they can mark places and do things to your stuff. However they do love you in their own sick way and they love you on their own terms. I hope the rain doesn't stay around long. A September that is cooler is nice, but I don't want to go into Winter too soon. I love the Fall and I want to have a long one this year like we had last year, so we can enjoy the season. I love Halloween and then Tom's birthday is in October. I love Conference and Thanksgiving. I can't wait. My brother and his family is going to be coming down from Spokane and I am looking forward for that and especially meeting our newest member of the family, Isla. She is adorable and I can't wait. Well, I have to go and get ready for the day, I shall write more later.