Getting Used To Eating Again

Well, it has been a week since my operation and things have not been what I thought they were going to be like. I hate to eat. I think eating 2 ounces at meal time is extreme. I know I should have been prepared and I knew what I was getting into, but come on, 2 ounces!! Oh well, it is over and done with and I can't go back, I can only go forward. I know that when more of the weight comes off that I will be a little bit chipper, but I am not right now. Maybe it is the fact that I don't have a job right now and I hate the weather. It has snowed and rained the past two days here in Salt Lake and it was so nice right before Spring arrived. I hope that we will get more pleasant weather in the future because I want to get out and walk a bit. I feel all out of sorts. I was so into a routine that I didn't give it much thought. I was going full circle and now I feel like I have no where to go. Like the "TOP" has stopped and threw me off. I went over to the beauty supply yesterday to see how much a hair chair would cost and I used to work for another Fantastic Sams over there. It is run by a different man and one who I like the pay scale. They redid the whole place and it looks good. I ran in there to see it and I don't know if I should try and get a job there again. I hate to keep on going back and forth. I promised myself that I wouldn't work for another person again, and I think it was premature. I don't know. I am going to think it about it some more and see what my options are. It is so frustrating not knowing what to do. I will get happier. I just need to dissimulate and find a happy medium.

I Have Had My Gastric By-Pass Surgery

Well, I am back and running. I have been very bad about the way I have kept up my blogging, and I will try to do better. I have had my surgery. It was on the 16th and everything went well. I had a hard time coming out of the anesthesia and I didn't like it. I felt like the top of my head was on fire and I couldn't open my eyes. My mouth was dry like cotton and I couldn't get enough water. I hate that feeling. Other than those moments, I am down 20 pounds since Monday and I am excited about loosing more. (What a way to loose 20 pounds)
I am no longer working at Fantastic Slaves. I was replaced by a 22 year old that has 1 year hair experience, one who I hired and they went behind my back and promoted her to my position and didn't have the decency to tell me themselves. I had to find out through my best friend, who also worked there and no longer does. It has been an eye-opening experience that is for sure. I didn't think they were like that and I didn't think they would stab me in the back. Oh well, they are Iranian. I feel free of them, and I am de-programing my self, it will take awhile. I will be doing hair in my house for a while and if I don't make enough, I can get another job. I am taking a break and trying to get feeling better.
The kids have been a help and my husband a God send, and so has my sisters and brothers and sweet Mother. I have had the best help. I feel very fortunate and I don't want to ever have those feelings replaced by money and the root of it. I know it is evil like the Bible says. I have a new outtake on life, and with that I feel on top of the world. I will send pics when I am down more poundage.