Sad News

I was out walking my dog today and I passed some neighbors on the side of the road, because one neighbor has a new puppy named Piper and she is adorable, anyway we were talking about this guy who lives 2 houses away from me. I met him last Autumn walking Max and he seemed really down in the dumps. He said that he lost his job and was trying to find another one that paid better, but because he was older, it was hard to find one. He lived there alone with his dog, Bubbles. He said that she was like his child and that he couldn't give up the house because he didn't think he could go anywhere that allowed dogs. Anyway, he had gone to my Bishop and he really didn't think a lot about him because the Bishop suggested that he move somewhere he could afford and so forth. I tried to talk to him about selling his camper and trailer and he said that he wanted to go on a trip. I talked to him about selling his house when the market was hot, and he didn't think he could do it. I guess he had a girlfriend and she even grew tired of the way he was thinking. Many times I passed his house and he would tell me that he was praying for
God to take him. I thought and prayed for him to find a solution to his problems. The Holy Ghost one time told me to take him some cookies and to see if he was O.K. I regret to say that I didn't follow through on that prompting. He grew more and more secluded as the year wore on. I didn't see him the other day and some other people were at his house. I wondered where he was and I didn't see his dog. I asked my neighbors today if they knew anything about it, and they told me that he shot himself about 2 weeks ago at his parents graves. I am in a state of shock because he actually did it. I told myself many times that he was going to kill himself because he was so down, and he did it. I just feel so sad. I wish I would have done something for him. He was so depressing, and every time I talked to him he would make it seem like there was no hope for him in the world. Iknow that is not an excuse not to help people, but I am going to make a commitment here and now to listen to the promptings of the Holy Spirit and do kind acts for my neighbors, even if it doesn't help their situation at least I know I tried. I feel tremendous guilt. This is how we will feel probably on Judgement Day. I hope he has found happiness and that he is in a better place. I do not judge people who take their own lives because we don't know what kind of mental state they are in at the time. I hope that he is at peace.